A year has gone by since Tennyson was born, so naturally I am thinking back on these past 12 months and feeling nostalgic and realizing how I've changed. There's some good things and some not so good things. So here we go:
1. I am more confident in following my instincts
When I was pregnant with Tenny I felt like I was listening to every different piece of advice I was given and trying to work it into my life somehow. I still like hearing opinions from friends and blogs but I feel much more confident about just trusting my gut then I did a year ago.
2. I lose my patience faster than I used to
It's just true! If I am tired, which I usually am these days, I get cranky and grumpy so easily. It could be the smallest thing that sets me off, but once I've lost my patience it's just gone.
3. I can't hear about anything related to child abuse or neglect
I've always been sensitive to violence in movies, but these days I can't listen to the radio, or the news if there is anything related to a child being harmed. I get angry and depressed picturing a child not being protected.
4. I'm always a bit lonely
Don't feel sorry for me. It just comes with being a stay at home mom. I want to make plans with people but I am bound to the nap and bedtime schedule we have currently. I used to be able to be spontaneous, but in this stage of motherhood it's not realistic.
5. I'm not so sure about my career
I really never thought I would be a full time sahm, and I know I won't be forever but I am surprised how over this year I have become much less passionate about advancing in my career. I'm just putting it aside for the time being, I'll come back to it eventually. (I think)
6. I'm proud of my body
While I don't always feel great in my skin and I wish my clothes didn't feel so tight, I have a newfound appreciation for what my body is capable of. I carried a baby and have been breastfeeding for over 12 months now! I'm proud of what my body has done :)
Those are just a few of the ways I've changed, and I am sure if I wrote this post in another year there would be a lot to add to the list!