It seems that at every stage of pregnancy and post pregnancy people tell you to 'enjoy it while it lasts.' I was reminded to enjoy being married with no kids, having a quiet house, a clean house, a job to go to, feeling the baby kick inside, etc. And now I am being urged to savor every stage of my child's growth because things change so fast! I used to be annoyed by how often I heard these words, but now I am starting to think I should listen to my friends as I sense their longing.
When I look at my one month-old son I finally get it. Every day is a new adventure, a new growth spurt, a longing for my marriage to be just the two of us, missing my full-time job, etc. I understand that feeling of time going too fast. How is it that my little baby who I was so impatiently waiting to make his overdue appearance is already five weeks old. How is it that I feel like I just fell in love with Evan and now we are more than two years into our marriage? I just want things to slow down!
Sometimes I whisper into my little boys ear "don't ever grow up" but in the same breath I feel so proud of the man he will become one day and can't wait to get to know his personality more. This whole parenting a newborn has taken me for quite a ride in such a short time. From an unplanned C-section which I still am taking time to process to the joy of being the one my baby needs each day, I am trying to pause and soak up every moment that I can. Every time I see Evan so gently pick up his baby and talk to him. Every time I see my parents look proud of their Grandson. Every time I get baby into the most darling outfit and take a picture before he soaks it. I cherish these moments and realize that these are those days I will long for when he's older.