Ok, there's something I need to address.
Compassion isn't always natural for me.
I used to think romantically about the idea of meeting peoples needs, helping them get back on their feet, or teaching them a practical skill that will help them in the future. I looked forward to learning all about peoples struggles and being able to bring them to the other side of things. I knew there would be difficulties in the work I've chosen, and I still am so glad I am able to work where I do, but there is a whole other side to this work that I avoid confronting.
Sometimes people I meet with are not kind to me. This is completely understandable because a lot of folks I meet are doing their very best to survive within a system that has beat them up time and time again. I am just one more person that they have to tell their story to in order to get what they need to keep on living. I will never be able to grasp what it is like to worry each day about what you are going to feed your kids and how you are going to get to that appointment.
A few years ago I would have told someone in my position that compassion trumps everything else and that if you aren't being kind first and foremost than you aren't doing your job. I still believe that compassion is important, but with it needs to come grace, assertiveness, and boundaries. I cant help people when I resent them. There are times when I need to step back and hope that there will be someone else to step in. Sometimes I have to let someone be angry with me, which is difficult for my people-pleasing personality. Here's to confronting it!
Welcome to my next mini-series titled Let's Be Honest.
It's so much easier to blog and post on social media about all the awesome things that happen to us, but I want to get into some of the not so awesome and raw feelings. There will be some guest posts and more from my own life, are you ready?